Yes.
Just when you think you are safe after being evacuated from
the war zone, the conflict area. Just when you think things are better, they
can become much worse very fast.
Yesterday, Sunday after Mass, at 10:30 AM I decided to
exercise. Take a vigorous long walk (3-4 hours) for the first time since I left
Ezo. In Ezo about 3 times per week I do so. Every day I take about a 1 hour
walk. This helps me to meditate, clean my mind, and think better.
The streets were actually full with mostly women and
children walking to and from church. At no point was I alone on the road.
After I crossed a small stream that had some wood covering
it as a primitive bridge, a young man of about 18 asks me “Where are you
going?” Now please understand that here every day, hundreds of people ask me
any place I am walking this question. This is common practice. Even little
children every day ask me this. So as per usual I told him, “I am walking.”
“Where?” he asked
“Just for exercise or sport” Funny how since no one except
some soccer players do exercise, this is a difficult concept to grasp. But I
felt this young man was a little more aggressive as he stood up and walked out
into the road to ask me.
I continued walking. Then when I reached this little church,
I just felt I should turn around.
But too late….
When I walked past that boy again, another boy who was drunk
came out into the road and told me to stop right there. Since he was drunk I
kept walking as I was talking telling them that I was going home and was just
out walking for ‘sport’.
The first boy runs out into the road and tell me to STOP
right there. Or he will arrest me. I asked how he could arrest me if he is not
a police. He ran and from behind a tree grabbed a huge army rifle and cocked it
pointed at me.
I tried to get one of the
30 or so women and children walking on the road to help me but NO ONE defended
me or told him to let me go.
Maybe they were all scared.
Very sad and scary
situation when everyone looks away pretending not to see you, when NO ONE
defends you, but I understand they are scared of them also.
So I stopped walking.
He then told me to go and sit down. That I was walking on
his territory and he does not know me. I could be a spy.
Oh… so I understood, he is a rebel or Arrow Boy or SSNLM
(South Sudanese New Liberation Movement) person.
I explained I am a volunteer doctor working for free in Ezo
helping HIS people, his wife, his mother, his daughter, and his sisters. I am
with an organization called CMMB. I am a friend to all people and in Ezo have
cared for hundreds of Arrow Boy women.
Of course this means nothing to him. He tells me I need to
explain all this to his boss. I said fine.
After 20 minutes his ‘boss’ arrives who
also is intoxicated and again same questions, same accusations, then same
explanation from me.
He states that I need to go and see his boss in the bush.
I
asked him to please have mercy. I am sorry I was on his territory. Call the
Arrow Boys in Ezo. I have cared for many of their women. Please let me go, I
will never come here again.
No, get on the motorbike and let us go to the bush
to his boss.
So we drove into the bush for at least 45 minutes.
Very
scary as we go deeper and deeper in the bush,
I started to quietly cry and then he
yelled at me not to cry because someone on the road could think he hurt me. So
I had to force myself not to cry.
Not as easy as you would think.
Then we arrive to an area or compound where there were at
least 50-75 men each with at least 2-3 rifles around their shoulders.
OH MY GOD!!!!!
In the back hiding in their Tukulos (huts) are some women
and children. But they are ignoring me.
I am told to sit down.
I am told that this man in the middle is the Commander.
OK…..
He asks me what he should do with me.
I told him to please forgive me. I did not know it was his
territory. Have mercy. I am a volunteer Doctor. I receive no pay. I help all
his people in Ezo. I asked him to call his fellow rebels in Ezo to ask them
about me. I explained that they all know me and love me.
He asked me why I was walking. I tried to explain for
exercise. He does not get the concept. His younger men try to explain for
sport, just to exercise. I explain, I am fat and want to reduce. He also does
not get this concept and wants to know why I want to reduce. I try to explain
for health. I find it so ironic that being fat and NOT doing exercise it more
understandable to these people than trying to do exercise and reducing weight.
He states that he does not know who I am and someone needs
to verify my identity. I told him let us call CMMB in Yambio. He states he does
not know CMMB. He will not call anyone
from CMMB. He does not know or trust them. Who else?
I asked him if he trusts his own Arrow Boys or SSNLM people
in Ezo. He said he does. I told him to call them. He apparently has someone do
it and they tell him I was in the bush hiding with the Priest, that the priest
is my friend.
He asks me if the Priest can verify my identity. Yes he can.
OK call him.
My FREAKING Network is not functioning. Also I have a new
phone since my other one was not working and now was stolen from the CMMB
compound in Ezo, that has all the phone numbers. On this phone I have 2 Priests
number and the Deacon.
He tells me to give him the number. He goes to make the
call. As the network is very crappy there in the FREAKING bush, it was
difficult to call out.
Meanwhile the spokesperson of their group, the SSNLM (Arrow
Boys/rebels) arrives and he is more educated and realizes they need to return
me before they have trouble. He tells them from what I can gather that I can
NOT go to the Congo with them. Thank God.
Finally the Commander finishes the call and tells me the
priest identifies me and confirms all that I have said is true. OK. So let me
go, right? NO…
Now he states that if the other tribe or the government sees
me leaving they will kill me and blame it on them. So what can we do? Call the
priest back and have him send someone to get me.
He states, “When a shirt falls into the river in the water
what happens?”
I state, “It becomes wet.”
He states, “Exactly.”
I absolutely do not understand what he is trying to tell me.
But later on someone explained that this means I need to help him.
He asks me what I can do for him.
I explain as a Doctor, if there is anyone sick, I can take
care of them. I can help any woman here who is pregnant.
He says No, that he wants money and medicine.
I explain that I am from Ezo and had to be evacuated and all
my things have been looted (stolen) in Ezo, that even to eat CMMB is the one to
feed me. That even the clothes I have on
were donated by one of the midwives in CMMB.
Also for the medicines, if he wants we can go to Ezo and I
can get medicines but here in Yambio I do not know even where they keep the
medicines at the hospital. I explain I am a missionary. I have NO pay. No money.
No medicine here.
Then he asks if I can connect him to the U.S. Embassy so
they can help them. He tells me that God allowed me to come here to help them
connect to the USA for help.
So I told him that when he releases me and I go back I can
try and see what I can do for him. He likes that answer.
Then three hours later at 3:00pm still no one has come to
get me. 2 journalists arrive, to interview the SSNLM and hear their demands.
The journalist is very curious about me there. I can’t understand anything but
he is asking about me. The Commander
explains something to him and starts to laugh. I see that the journalist is not
convinced. When the journalist shakes my hand, I do NOT smile and I shake my
head NO.
Apparently the Journalist goes back to the town and asks at
the Curia (the Bishop’s house) if anyone knows me. They explain that yes and
they are trying to come and rescue me. But they are having problems. So they
send the motorbike driver (an Arrow Boy) who brought the journalists in the
first place out to the bush to get me.
Meanwhile I am still in the bush. It is 4:00 pm and they are
getting very anxious about me still being there after 4 hours. They keep saying
that if the priests were serious they would have come and get me. They also say
that they must leave and go to the Congo and to other places and I am delaying
them. Now is the first time I get really anxious because I realize this is how
people get shot and killed when the captors get nervous and want to get rid of
this “problem” which by the way they created!
Then God had mercy on me and it started to rain. So they
were distracted. We waited until the rain stopped. They could not leave either
in the rain on motorbikes.
So I suggest we call CMMB. They will send a truck for me.
They agree. I call CMMB. They of course immediately answer and say they will
come.
Meanwhile the Arrow Boy motorbike guy comes and puts the
priest on the phone who tells me to get on the motorbike and leave immediately
and not to wait for CMMB to arrive because these people are now wanting to
leave the area and wanting to get rid of me.
So I get on the bike and back we come. We go to the Curia. I
called CMMB who immediately arrives to get me. But the Arrow Boy motorbike guy
wants to take me to the National Security office to verify that I have not been
physically harmed by the SSNLM/rebels.
CMMB people tell him, they will take me in the truck. So we
go to the National Security Office. The director explained to me, in his
opinion, who these SSNLM people are, their etiology, and their goals. He tells
me do not make the same mistake again walking, crossing into their territory.
That if the peace agreement had not been signed a few days ago I would probably
be taken to the Congo, raped, hurt, killed and God only knows what else.
I assure him that I will not make that mistake again.
He says, “You leave now.”
Shakes my hand, and that is it.
5 hours of my abduction,
kidnapping is over.
One hour of interrogation is over.
Conflict and war means no rest, no security ever. It is always
present.
This morning I called the CMMB program manager to ask if I could come
walking to the office from the hotel. He said it was safe to do so. But I felt
for the first time ever as a missionary, volunteer, world traveler real anxiety
to walk the streets.
But I made myself do so.
I must NOT let fear continue to
eat at my heart.
It is not over.
The conflict continues.
My parish priest in
Ezo, Fr. Jacinto is sick, he is STILL in the bush after almost 13 days. The
Deacon is still there as well. They are not eating properly. The CHD (County
Health Director) of Ezo is bringing him medicine for malaria.
The Rebels are still seeking monetary compensation for me. This morning they came to the CMMB compound asking for money.
So now I have been told I am NOT to walk anywhere alone. I must take the CMMB vehicle even for the short distance between the compound and the hotel.
The National Security Office now has me as a
possible threat to National Security. Because they can't understand what I was doing out walking.
All I can say is DAMN exercise!!!!!!
I really do not feel safe here in Yambio. I know this feeling will pass but everyone I see is a possible spy for one side or the other checking up on me.
I know this is NOT real but after everyone has been telling me this to scare me, I am starting to believe this.
Thank God I am going to Juba on Wednesday for R&R and
then going to Nzara Hospital to be with the Comboni nuns until things “cool
down” in Ezo.
CMMB administration here has been so wonderful to me, so
supportive and understanding.
Conflict like this between tribes is horrible. It never ends
because the hatred never ends.
God please send your peace to South Sudan.
Pray for my Parish priest and the Deacon still in the bush.
Pray for me that my heart becomes peaceful and secure again.
I miss walking. I miss exercise.
I never thought I would say that.